Wheels Within

 Jan 22-28, 2018 Health : I have been getting almost enough sleep, and have managed my various challenges well. My teeth are healing well, and I have to eat slower to chew things more carefully and I feel that will soon have an effect on weight, because I am doing what you are supposed to do and taking my time to eat. I also cannot eat hard crunchy or sticky chewy foods kind of at all any more, and that's good because pretty much none of them add any nutritive value to my diet. I have not gotten as much movement and exercise as I would like, so this is an area I will concentrate on in the near future, to build up my stamina and feel like I am making forward progress on my fitness and health. 3/5 Communication:  I feel like I dropped a couple of balls this week, but that I followed up on others, that were not easy ones to catch. I did communicate to my boss that I would not be able to work one of the days, and that was good, but I also failed to confirm pick up times until

 Jan 8-14, 2018 Health : Dealt with teeth and was physically active, except for Sunday: definitely feel like I did better than some weeks, and while I did not choose the best dietary options, I did make a pretty solid effort. 4/5 Communication: I did more than the minimum, and feel like I left no one in the lurch over the course of the week. It is not on me if my boss cannot read a calendar or hear me when I tell him I will not be in, especially when I know for certain I told him, more than once. I did my part. If written comms are what I need for him, I will start to confirm every conversation in text, just so we both have a written version to refer to. 5/5 Balance: I feel like I stayed fairly focused and balanced this week. I did have a moment of deep imbalance on Saturday night, and I am acknowledging my role in that spasm of misery. I am aware of that pit within, and that I should not make any major decisions when under it’s bleak influence. 4/5 Resources: I

I am trying to establish a few good habits.  Out of bed by 9 am. Morning coffee and playtime Morning blogging (usually game blog, but sometimes here, too. Put up the day's backlogged post if one is ready. Check in on Habitica and SuperBetter (slowly updating and customising those behavioural tracking apps: need to get them on my phone...). Comm who I need to about what I need to. Do chores or get ready for work When I get home, before I take my boots off, walk the muppets. Come home, make food, eat. Relax. Check in before bed to hard copy checklist and to the sites. Blog a bit more. Take meds, read before sleep.  In bed by midnight.  Some of these habits are easier to form, so as long as I get out of the damned bed, they happen. I need to get better at hygiene issues: it's not quite enough to brush my hair, pony tail it and make sure my clothes are vaguely presentable. I always feel better when I am cleaner, so bathing

My day started extra early, as I had gone to bed at 9:30 but didn't actually fall off the cliff till maybe midnight: I vaguely recall hearing Dixon come home; I was awake at 6 and change this morning. I was not groggy, so I made myself a cuppajoe and then went back to bed to read and ponder and rest up. Was actually out of bed at 8, fed the muppets and myself, did a bit of morning scribbling and set up a couple of things in my game so I could keep that happening all day. Had a bus snafu that caused me to head in to work a good two hours later than planned but I put the time to good use with a more through than usual clean of the kitchen, including sweeping the floors in kitchen, living room and foyer. I left the house to meet my boss in Langley for 1. Shovelled poop for a few hours, then taught a lesson, with an often-rewarding student, then headed for the bus at 5:45. I had to hit a store to pick up some soft foods (for Sammie and for me), so I got home about 7:30 took the dog

I am attending an SCA event this weekend, driving down with my lord, one of his vassals, and one of my dearest friends. It's a short-ish trip, but with my joint issues and recovering from the dental work, I am a bit more trepidatious than I might usually be. Last year, Garet and I took the train down, and it was a gorgeous trip. Travelling by train is more adventuresome than driving; it has a charm to it that driving does not. That said, we left at a ridiculous hour. This time we are leaving mid morning, instead of before dawn. That said, the scenery of watching the sun rise as we sped southward was elevating and ennervating. In addition, I had a hard time at the last Twelfth Night I attended: going to larger events in distant parts of the realm, and any hotel-based event feels, just... weird to me. I feel out of place and not really welcome. I spent much of last year's Twelfth Night sitting in a nook in the lobby, crocheting by myself. I am very glad to at least have t

I need to create a draft template to fill in. But till then.... Health : The teeth issues are dragging me down, but because I have gotten treatment (scheduled for surgery tomorrow), and I have done better at committing to movement, which balances out the still poor diet choices I've made. 2/5 Communication :  I have checked in with everyone I needed to, until yesterday, and weighing the balance, working on self-honesty, I'm not disappointed in myself. 3/5 Balance : I feel like I had a good balance of movement this week, but there is definitely room for improvement. 4/5 Resources :  I managed my funds well, and due to the weather break from work, I had enough energy to get through most of my days. 3/5.  Creativity :  While I did not finish a single crochet project this week, I did write so much. I am following up on that career development channel and feeling very motivated to just continue developing this better habit. 4/5  Environment : I have finally gotten al

Tangent Girl, Master Distractor, Livin' la VidADHD. Whatever you want to call it, I am so easily pulled from my path, that routine and commitment are incredibly hard for me to maintain focus on any one goal for long enough to complete a task. The doing is partly its own reward but the actual completion of a task or achievement of a goal is a life-long struggle. I struggle to stay on top of things, and sometimes the very best thing I can do is organise my mind to break down a job into smaller tasks, bite-sized, achievable chunks, and then report back to myself on how I am doing at getting each small thing done. Reporting back is one of the uses of my blogs. I am writing to report on each thing done or left undone, both to motivate myself to get things happening and to reward myself with a report that someone, somewhere might read and think, Go Girl! and also to discipline myself for when I leave a task undone or a goal unmet: Do better, try harder, so I can report that I did the

I failed to go to bed at a good hour last night, so woke up late and tired and unmotivated. Did not take the dogs for their walk as I should have when I got home yesterday so did not put out the trash, either, so that didn't get done, and I am angry with myself for not living up to my potentials. Also failed to contact the BF over the week, so did not confirm my plans and needs with him about transporting all the donations to the various places, and as a result I have doubts that is going to happen, which makes me mad all over again. And I NEED to go to work today to prep feedbags and to check on my horse, because the boss called me this morning to let me know she was lame. It's already 1 pm and I have accomplished diddly over squat. Not even out of my nightdress. Grr, Briana. You are better than this. Okay, got off my ass, got dressed, pinged a couple folks for rides, no takers, so pinged Don for pick up. Ate a pretty healthy breakfast, and will be out the door in ten. I

(I do sometimes feel like nothing I write is meant to be "short, sweet and to the point. I am aware that this is a style all its own, but that it will not be to everyone's tastes.) I started my day off before 6 am, waking in the dark to the faint sounds of roommates heading out for their very early call. I was warm and safe and didn't hurt much, and my younger dog was snuggled in against the back of my leg between my knee and my hip. Let me tell you about my dogs, as they are a key ingredient in my current state of mind. Woodgie came to me in July of 2013. I met him when he was two weeks old and fell hard in love. The lovely lady who whelped him, along with 8 littermates of his unintentional litter (and another 8 purebred Rhodesian Ridgebacks on the same day) had hoped I would take to one of the purebred puppies as she was always on the lookout for custodial show homes for her very lovely dogs, so she was ladling my arms full of this puppy and that puppy. "This is

I did call a dentist yesterday about my broken tooth. I got out of the house for several hours, taking transit downtown, which I do not like to do, as it reminds me how little I like being in massive, impersonal crowds. I hunkered down and read for most of the trip. I finished a book I had started and started another. I blogged notes here and a full if short entry on GG2. I made dinner for me and my roomies, and ate fairly well. It was a semi-wasted trip downtown however, as the thing I needed to buy I did not actually need to buy. So I bought some books instead: professional development and a gift for my grandson, who I still haven't seen over Christmas, and I still don't know why that is. I am half way through the professional development book, and am feeling challenged by what it is saying. I will be doing the exercises in the book, and hopefully gaining some insight and inspiration to this particular (new) stream. So I achieved a couple of steps yesterday, although to

I AM SURE that every New Year sees a plethora of new blogs that last maybe a few days or weeks before sputtering out, like the flame of inspiration does on so many candles at each opening phase change. This one may prove just like all the others... except it is a goal for me to train myself to finish the things I start. Retrain those neural pathways that allow me to quit before I've well done. This is hard work, and the real key is, I need to start anew, in order to prove that I can maintain a course. So for an outline: I am aiming to write regularly, document my challenges and issues and how I am dealing with them, be it by chipping away at them, knocking them down, or taking a break and just not looking at them. The purpose of the writing is to establish healthier writing habits, to track efforts and results so I can target the incentives for success, and to help hold myself accountable for whatever effects I may achieve. This journal is meant to give me a space of emotional