Twelfth Night 1/10/2018

I am attending an SCA event this weekend, driving down with my lord, one of his vassals, and one of my dearest friends. It's a short-ish trip, but with my joint issues and recovering from the dental work, I am a bit more trepidatious than I might usually be.

Last year, Garet and I took the train down, and it was a gorgeous trip. Travelling by train is more adventuresome than driving; it has a charm to it that driving does not. That said, we left at a ridiculous hour. This time we are leaving mid morning, instead of before dawn. That said, the scenery of watching the sun rise as we sped southward was elevating and ennervating.

In addition, I had a hard time at the last Twelfth Night I attended: going to larger events in distant parts of the realm, and any hotel-based event feels, just... weird to me. I feel out of place and not really welcome. I spent much of last year's Twelfth Night sitting in a nook in the lobby, crocheting by myself. I am very glad to at least have this machine with me this time, as it may help alleviate some of that stress: all else fails, I can still write.

Also, we are booked into a nearby hotel with a pool and hot tub, so I will do my best to get in some rest and relaxing exercise as well. Need to remember to pack swimsuit, towels and workout clothes. With sharing a room with my excellent friend Cassie, I expect we won't run out of things to talk about, either.

I am feeling better than before about the event, now that I have written this down. Interesting how attitudes can be affected by an honest assessment of things.

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