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Focus Work 1/3/2018

I did call a dentist yesterday about my broken tooth. I got out of the house for several hours, taking transit downtown, which I do not like to do, as it reminds me how little I like being in massive, impersonal crowds. I hunkered down and read for most of the trip. I finished a book I had started and started another. I blogged notes here and a full if short entry on GG2. I made dinner for me and my roomies, and ate fairly well.

It was a semi-wasted trip downtown however, as the thing I needed to buy I did not actually need to buy. So I bought some books instead: professional development and a gift for my grandson, who I still haven't seen over Christmas, and I still don't know why that is.

I am half way through the professional development book, and am feeling challenged by what it is saying. I will be doing the exercises in the book, and hopefully gaining some insight and inspiration to this particular (new) stream.

So I achieved a couple of steps yesterday, although today I feel like I have taken a step backwards, since I started off my day by postponing a client. (I don't think it will be a problem for them, but I hate doing it, as it reaffirms a less-successful path for me professionally.) I als o confirmed the booking of a clinician for a big deal clinic this Spring. It's early in the day and it has already been some up and some down. And my knees are hurting hardcore today.

...And took the dogs for a walk and am meeting my other obligations, so I don't feel too down. Had a sad recollection this morning though, and that has kinda set my mood for the day.

I want soup. Made by someone else. Tasty, wonton soup or seafood chowder, or beef stew.

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