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I AM SURE that every New Year sees a plethora of new blogs that last maybe a few days or weeks before sputtering out, like the flame of inspiration does on so many candles at each opening phase change. This one may prove just like all the others... except it is a goal for me to train myself to finish the things I start. Retrain those neural pathways that allow me to quit before I've well done. This is hard work, and the real key is, I need to start anew, in order to prove that I can maintain a course.

So for an outline: I am aiming to write regularly, document my challenges and issues and how I am dealing with them, be it by chipping away at them, knocking them down, or taking a break and just not looking at them. The purpose of the writing is to establish healthier writing habits, to track efforts and results so I can target the incentives for success, and to help hold myself accountable for whatever effects I may achieve.

This journal is meant to give me a space of emotional honesty from which to assess my approaches, direction, and the results of whatever efforts I make, towards being a better me. Take it as a mission statement, if you will, except without the NLP jargoning of word-choices to "optimise my experience". I am writing this for myself, and if what I write hits home with someone else, yay us! That said, any Reader of this will have to accept their existence, as I write is purely Hypothetical.

Welcome then, dear HR. I make no promises that any of this will be interesting, entertaining or useful to you, but if it is, more power us.


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  1. Yay us! Thank you for letting us bathe in your always enlightening stream of consciousness.

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